“My Autism Keeps Upsetting People” - Vittorio Angelone

CChris Williamson
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00:00:00maybe you are quite peterson-pilled clean in your room listen i read the 12 rules for life book did
00:00:06you really find it helpful did you really when i was like 22 and i'm so embarrassed
00:00:15i'm so like spiritually like i don't know something about me and my audience would hate
00:00:22the fact that i really found jordan peterson very helpful and i made my girlfriend watch it when i
00:00:26was 22. be like look at this guy kathy newman's an idiot isn't she it's terrible i'm so embarrassed
00:00:34by all of that but like he was like helpful and informative and i think it was like so it
00:00:40was self-help really that like 12 rules for life book and i needed that i needed someone to go
00:00:46come on man grow up grow up get your together do you think that your audience would guess that you
00:00:53were a previous jordan peterson stan some of them some of them i think won't be or like wouldn't be
00:01:00like happier or like maybe they'd be surprised but i think that's where i like to like i try to be
00:01:06honest about that stuff and i like i would like i would like to hear someone be like oh yeah i found
00:01:11that helpful and then it went a bit crazy you know um so i try to be like open about that i was like a
00:01:17i'm still a dumb idiot guy this is the problem i write like like narrative thoughtful thematic stand
00:01:23up shows but i'm a idiot like you know what i mean so it's hard you got spiked i got spiked in nashville
00:01:32listen allegedly i don't know they were like we could do a toxicology report on you but it costs like
00:01:39x thousand dollars and i was like just give me whatever stops me vomiting right now and i'll be
00:01:46okay but i thought it was like i thought it was just like a really unjust hangover i was in nashville
00:01:51i did a show i went for a couple drinks afterwards and a game of pool and i was like yeah i had a couple
00:01:57drinks and then i remember like getting back to the or like my friend giving me a lift back to the hotel
00:02:04and me being like i am trolley right now like when did that happen and then started playing him like
00:02:12mongolian throat singing on spotify which was like that i mean i don't know if that's a symptom of
00:02:20being spiked by a mongolian yeah maybe maybe a mongolian spiked me
00:02:26um but then i don't remember lots of patches of the evening and i don't remember getting into the hotel room
00:02:33and like going to bed or whatever and when i woke up my phone was like in the bathroom not plugged in
00:02:37and like all my was like all over the hotel room and i woke up and i just thought
00:02:41it was like a really you know when you get a bad hangover but you don't think you deserve it
00:02:46you're like i didn't i wasn't this is unjust exactly it was like this is not karmically
00:02:51balanced right now so i got up and then i like vomited and i was like god that was pretty bad
00:02:59did a also pretty bad and then i was like come on you just gotta get your together like i went
00:03:04to i went full jordan peterson i was like i just gotta tidy my room and i'll be okay and then i
00:03:09vomited like once every 30 minutes for like the whole month until i checked out and then i checked out
00:03:16of the hotel and had to go to the toilet in the lobby and throw up there and i was like this is not
00:03:23this is no hangover i've experienced and i've drank a lot in the past and so the guy this guy ian who
00:03:32was like filming the show and stuff he was like still in town and he was like do you want me to
00:03:37take you to like an iv clinic and i was like this is the most like american shit of all time of like
00:03:42go to some weird like spa where they just hook hook you in a wave sage at you do a sound bowl and then
00:03:48they were closed so we were like oh so we went to urgent care which i don't really know what that
00:03:54is like i don't know the american healthcare system is like weird it's not the emergency room but it's
00:03:59like a step it's a half a and e but it's also beside a burger restaurant i was like this this
00:04:06country's fucked this country's this is where there should be like a barber shop or like you know but
00:04:13there's a healthcare facility so i walked in and i think because i was just being like polite to the
00:04:20woman behind the desk i was like oh hi she thought you were minimizing how serious it was she just
00:04:24thought i was like kind of fine and i like signed in and like just did like persistent vomiting
00:04:29it was like my symptom on the thing and then so i was sat there and like people kept getting called
00:04:34in before me and then at one point i was like oh i'm getting that feeling where i'm gonna like
00:04:40throw up again and i was like texting my mom at the time and her actual advice was throw up in the
00:04:46lobby because then they'll escalate they'll see you which is like crazy mom advice of like just
00:04:54throw up on the floor pretty effective and i didn't do that but it was mainly because the bathroom was
00:05:01like right beside the reception desk it's pretty egregious if the bathroom is within sight exactly to
00:05:06just go help so that's your vip pass yeah so i went into the bathroom and made a bit of a hullabaloo out
00:05:18of it to the point where i was like okay they can definitely hear me oh you hammed it up i didn't
00:05:22ham it up i just am a loud vomiter okay i'm naturally allowed i'm screaming really the whole time i think
00:05:30i'm quite a shy vomitor oh really yeah i liked i i don't want to i don't want to make a fuss
00:05:37i think you don't want to make a fun i'm making a fuss are you i'm kicking up a fuss if i'm throwing
00:05:42up i'm just i hate it so much so i sort of walk out i'd stick my head out the door like finish
00:05:50vomiting like nothing there's nothing inside me but it's just like you know the horrible yellow like
00:05:55bile awful stuff so i stick my head out and go oh i like i keep vomiting and they were like they were
00:06:04like yeah we heard i was like i'm really sorry they were like someone's coming to see you now
00:06:10it's like okay good so i went in and they checked my blood pressure and whatever and did the basics
00:06:16and they were like okay what's happened i was like listen i had a few drinks last night but this feels
00:06:21crazy i've thrown up like seven times today and i have nothing left to throw up but it keeps happening
00:06:27then i go okay it feels like you probably had something flipped in your drink uh it's very common in
00:06:32nashville in like particularly like certain areas of nashville and i was like that's a crazy thing
00:06:38to like define yourselves by but like apparently it happens like all the time and they were like
00:06:44were you like looking after your drink and i was like no i was farting around i was just walking
00:06:50around taking pictures doing whatever and my drink was just sat there and they were like yeah
00:06:54and they're like were you hanging around any like weird people and i was like no i sort of knew
00:06:59people and you know people i'd worked with and they were like okay that's kind of weird and i was like
00:07:04oh and then i did start playing pool and then these like real sort of like redneck guys challenged they
00:07:09were like we'll play you for the table and i was like yeah because i'm like quite good at pool
00:07:16so i just absolutely tore these guys apart and they got quite like aggro at one point where my body was
00:07:24like you should you should kill it on the pool thing and you beat them so badly that you nearly started
00:07:30well i just think because i was like in a fun goofy like i just on my show in nashville i was having a
00:07:34good i was like laughing when stuff went in and like you know and then this guy came up and was like you
00:07:42okay and i was like yeah and he was like all right just like this redneck and i was like okay whatever
00:07:50so i'm not saying you were showboating yeah maybe right and i don't look i'm not saying those guys
00:07:55definitely spiked my drink but if i had to if i was a betting man my money's on jimbo
00:08:04which was his actual name and shout out to jimbo and his wife beat him jimbo and his like really
00:08:09frightening looking wife actually she was really she from the moment i was like yeah let's play for it
00:08:14she was like really angry about it i don't know what was going on so that's the working theory and
00:08:20i have eaten like one sandwich and three spoons of porridge in the last like day and a half i could
00:08:28collapse at any moment but they stabbed they injected my ass with like an anti-vomiting drug and i was like
00:08:34this is nice sick this is nice and two hundred dollars as well they didn't me up i was expecting
00:08:39like american healthcare to get like really like you know cause loads and 200 is crazy for like one
00:08:46injection or whatever but like certainly so i stopped vomiting and i made my flight to austin which
00:08:51was delayed by two hours which i actually think was good i got is this bad i got assistance through the
00:08:56airport of who do i just like typed on the app that i needed a wheelchair you got wheeled through the
00:09:02airport you're kidding me i was like i can't stand up for that long you got wheeled through nashville
00:09:07airport yeah they don't ask what's wrong i think i said like ankle injury
00:09:21because i liked it like a month ago i was getting wheeled through airports because i had
00:09:24up my ankle uh-huh they don't ask i know this is so bad like but is it a life hack
00:09:30well you can just click the button you don't need to what what did you click it when i don't think
00:09:34they're allowed to ask i don't think they're allowed to be like disabilities are visible
00:09:37that kind of thing i saw i'm autistic sunflower lanyard i don't know
00:09:44it's crazy and i felt like a little bit bad for the person like pushing me through the airport
00:09:47but i truly think i would have collapsed if i'd like queued for security and all that
00:09:51which feels valid i didn't tell them that i was like potentially had been poisoned by a redneck and
00:09:58like right you know because i don't think they would let me on the flight that's why i said ankle
00:10:02injury in case you were infectious or something i think everywhere or like i think insurance i think
00:10:07if they are if i'd walked in and be like i think i've been drugged i don't know with what i can't
00:10:12stop vomiting i think they would have been like well you might like die on the flight so like
00:10:18i think that like airlines their insurance that's going to be an inconvenience for us i think that
00:10:21would be a lot of paperwork if i died on the flight um but yeah got wheeled through pretty chill
00:10:30it's like it's a good move it actually sounds like you had a nice time i wouldn't say that
00:10:36i wouldn't say that while i was in nashville airport crying on the phone to my mom because
00:10:41i kept shaking i spent too much time practicing pool
00:10:53i've been cursed with my ability to beat a redneck i'm icarus of the pool world you flew too close to
00:10:58the black that sounds crazy that's what jimbo said to me
00:11:12yeah so that's crazy so i'm now i mean we're in austin it's my first north american tour i'm in the
00:11:17states for the whole month and the whole thing was like it's pretty like you know in the states pretty
00:11:22much by myself for the whole month this is like stressful but i'm going to be on top of it and i am
00:11:26now not going to drink for the rest of the month have you been on top of it up until getting poisoned
00:11:32i had a crazy one and this is going to become a stand-up routine but like
00:11:36no the problem with the stand-up routine at the minute is nobody believes that it happened
00:11:40uh went to la first that was good fun a terrible city it's not really a city it's not a place it's
00:11:46just roads it's roads with occasional things like i know that is what a city is but it's not it's got
00:11:52nothing tying it together um and then went to new york and my girlfriend came at me in new york and
00:11:58we were like let's do some like you know touristy things let's get a bagel let's do whatever and uh
00:12:04so it was the day after i landed into new york uh we were walking around we got a bagel and then we
00:12:10went to the 911 memorial and we were like it was just nearby and we were like that's pretty like you
00:12:14know important to see and i this is the bit that people don't believe in audiences i um
00:12:20i shit myself at the 911 memorial
00:12:29i turned to my girlfriend and was like oh no and she was like yeah it's so sad
00:12:34and i was like i've shit my pants i've shit my full pants um it was like a short it was like pretty
00:12:42small but not great so this trip so far has actually been defined by your bowels i don't
00:12:49think food in this country is good for you it's not food it's not food it's not really food i tried
00:12:56to get like a super plain sandwich at the airport in nashville and it's like this bread isn't bread
00:13:00this turkey isn't turkey none of this is food no that's something that's something that american
00:13:06people i think are missing out on advanced country military technology ai all this stuff
00:13:14sandwich technology just has not crossed over from the uk when you think about they don't understand
00:13:19what the meal deal is oh it's a gorgeous institution dude you know i found this out because uh newtonic's
00:13:24in the sainsbury's meal deal now so congratulations thank you very much it's a bit that's kind of a
00:13:28little bit like being uh knight it's like it's getting an obe or an mbe or something it's not
00:13:32quite a knighthood yet um anyway the average british citizen has 70 meal deals a year that's that is
00:13:42low that is i in my opinion that is low i know but that's the average that's right there's gonna be
00:13:48some people having people from home that you're never gonna get to see a meal deal or whatever
00:13:51uh but the fact that you can't get i don't even know how to describe the institution
00:13:58there's this kind of almost quasi religion that is the meal deal in the uk to americans 3.50
00:14:04it used to be three pounds and you get like so it's a main a side and a drink but those categories
00:14:11are like slightly i think bartlett's got his huell in the main section somehow so you can get two drinks
00:14:18well bartlett would of course argue that it's not a drink it's a meal but um you know does have lead in
00:14:25it so that's fine so you can get like mostly sandwiches wraps like sushi if you're a fancy
00:14:31one salads yeah but it's just pasta there's no vegetables it's pasta mayonnaise chicken and bacon
00:14:38and they call it a chicken and bacon pasta salad yeah with no salad and no vegetables at all it's the
00:14:43sandwiches the big difference the sandwich is the big difference yeah where you've got bread that's
00:14:47made from bread and you've got you know two cut diagonally as well and i think when it comes to
00:14:54sandwiches the increase in the tastiness of a sandwich by cutting it corner to corner wow
00:15:02instant what 15 percent maybe improvement in the taste of the sandwich i think
00:15:07what is the possible rationale for that i completely agree but i don't understand i'm going to give you
00:15:16i'm going to give you pizza toast right but well buttered warm toast yeah nicely sort of a six out
00:15:21of ten to six and a half out of yeah yeah toastiness there it is just normal piece you're like it was
00:15:28nice it was nice piece of toast and now i cut it like that and give it to you that's a treat that's a real
00:15:34treat somebody's looking after you it's the attention to detail i think it's more difficult to cut
00:15:38something diagonally than it is to do that even though it's definitely like a machine that does
00:15:43that but even still superior sandwich technology but then ireland is a step above the uk for sandwiches
00:15:50because every shop has a deli counter where they will make you a sandwich make you a sandwich in
00:15:55front of you like baguette like proper bread chicken fillet roll is like the big thing and
00:16:02chicken fillet roll you mean the fillet of a chicken like so it's like a chicken uh like breaded chicken
00:16:10right oh okay like goudron's yeah in a roll in like a baguette and then you can get like anything
00:16:18you want on it and it's like every centra every spar like has a deli counter where they do chicken
00:16:26fillet rolls it's it's amazing and they don't have it maybe ireland has superior science ireland's top of
00:16:31the sandwich tree you think i would say yeah i'm sure like philadelphia would like be annoyed with
00:16:36me about that for their like new york might not be too happy either but uh the other thing that i
00:16:40miss is saurine oh that weird i've never had that i think we have an equivalent in belfast which is
00:16:47called veda it's like a malt loaf yeah unbelievable buttered malt loaf dude and again corner to corner
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00:17:58autism adult autism diagnosis yeah age 29 right yeah what's changed since that happened anything i don't know
00:18:08a lot of people who get the diagnosis are like and everything suddenly made sense and i could
00:18:14manage my life and i could you know get over these obstacles that i'd always struggled with but i think
00:18:21it's like for me it felt like an extremely gradual process where like there was it starts with like
00:18:30jokes like your friends just call you autistic basically and then i sort of socially bumped into a lot of people
00:18:38in a negative way just got some things wrong and to the but then like i would have an interaction with
00:18:44somebody that i thought was like positive and then i would get like a big message the next day
00:18:50saying how much i'd like insulted them or like stepped over some social faux pas that you didn't
00:18:55see i'd like no i was just like what a nice chat and then the next day they're like you you make me feel
00:19:00like every time we talk um and those are just the people who are like prepared to reach out exactly
00:19:06so i must be doing this all the time you're saying there's a wake of destruction wake of autistic
00:19:10destruction i mean there may well be and i just have no completely oblivious blissfully unaware
00:19:16completely no idea it's so it's definitely not blissful it's unaware i think this is a misconception
00:19:21about autism that we're that it's like blissful lack of awareness of floating through life people socially
00:19:27it's that i am constantly so worried that i've upset people but i have no way to tell if that's the case
00:19:33whatsoever so you're just like swinging punches with a blindfold on going like apologizing when you
00:19:39didn't need to apologize and like you're missing the mark on both sides i'm it i'm it in
00:19:45both directions i'm apologizing when i had no need to apologize i'm patting myself on the back
00:19:50when i've ruined somebody's day and that i sort of that made me reach out to a medical professional and
00:19:57go hey there's something there's something going on here um also i was like a very strange child i was
00:20:05very anxious i like had loads of panic attacks when i was like 9 10 11 years old um ran away from
00:20:14school and like tried to run home and was like just couldn't had to be had to do lessons in like a
00:20:19different room to everybody else just do worksheets by myself had to go in through a different entry to
00:20:24primary school like different door because i just couldn't deal with like the crowds of people and
00:20:28all this stuff um i punched my primary school principal uh because i was trying to run away and
00:20:34she and she was trying to stop me running away how old were you nine
00:20:40at what point does a punch become a punch like at what age yeah it's like yeah it's like a puppy
00:20:45like nip like biting your ankle or whatever it's like oh that's cute up until the point yeah and then
00:20:50it's actually assault i would say like probably the cutoff is like 10 or 11. yeah you just nipped
00:20:56in yeah just before you're like inverse russell brand but then like full
00:21:04can we dig into that can we pick that apart i'm inverse russell brand yeah because russell flew
00:21:09very close to the sun but on the legal side and you for now uh yeah true uh okay yeah you know
00:21:17what i mean so you there was an age cut off that was about to happen and you got in just before it
00:21:22yes and there was an age cut off that was about to happen and russell got in just after it
00:21:26okay inverse russell brand so i was like barely legal
00:21:36a barely legal punch yeah yeah that was me that's what you are um so there's all that and it all sort
00:21:41of added up to me reaching out to a doctor just like my local gp in uh london and they were like
00:21:48yeah this sounds like worth investigating let's do like a phone call and i had a phone call with like
00:21:53the specialist on the nhs and they're like great we'll add you to the list uh the waiting list for the
00:21:59assessment and i was like okay how long does that normally take and they were like four years and i
00:22:07was like okay cool and then i sort of had a bit about it in my last tour show and as i was going
00:22:13around and touring i discovered along with my audience that i had a lot of autistic people attending
00:22:18my shows and a lot of autism practitioners attending my shows so i got five offers across
00:22:24the tour of people to do the assessment for free privately because they were just at the show and
00:22:28they were like oh that's my job and i can just you know rather than it costing like two grand to do it
00:22:33i'll just do it for you so i did the one that was closest to london went through the whole process
00:22:37you have like four or five different appointments you have to fill out forms my girlfriend and my mom
00:22:41had to fill out forms character reference yeah just like from your perspective what does this look
00:22:46like from your perspective what does this look like and then from like my own perspective what does that
00:22:49look like um and it came back and they were like you're like a little bit raised in lots of these
00:22:57things like the traits but then like incredibly high on masking so basically pretending you don't have
00:23:03autism um which basically sort of explains why these aren't as raised as you even managed to mask the
00:23:11test but i mean basically and apparently this is like it's a similar reason why like uh women it's much
00:23:17harder to diagnose autism because they're much more concerned with like the group dynamics so they're
00:23:21much more adept at masking and they're told to mask a bit more or expected to mask a bit more societally
00:23:26so i think i have like girl autism which is like quite exciting
00:23:34i also think it's like a comedian thing where i mask professionally like the job is say something
00:23:42you said a million times as if it's the first time you said it but that's also like being autistic
00:23:47in the world yeah is like somebody asked me this question i know what i'm going to say
00:23:51because i'm not conversing intuitively i'm doing a little script that i'm following that i've learned
00:23:57is how people like to be interacted with so i've like that's what stand-up is so i think i'm like
00:24:04just a touring masker which is quite i think that's why the but a global masker as well across
00:24:10the rest of your life yeah i think so and then that's a weird feeling to sort of like what does
00:24:15it mean to unmask like i don't want to be rude to people i think some people get diagnosed and then
00:24:21decide that they can just like freewheeling asshole be a dickhead yeah and i don't want to do that but
00:24:27i do hope that like maybe the diagnosis and me being like public about the diagnosis means that if i do
00:24:34fuck up socially then people like won't be as upset not even for my benefit i've got this autism card
00:24:40here that's not you're not allowed to be mean to me but not even for me i'm just like please don't
00:24:46take any of this personally i'm trying i won't have meant that like you know because i i hate upsetting
00:24:52people like it's my least favorite thing it is an interesting point at what point are you culpable
00:24:57for your actions you have to be like that guy that had tourettes uh was it the baftas yeah
00:25:03fuck everybody that was mean to him fuck every single person that was mean to him about that i like
00:25:08i was so angry about that whole scenario i didn't think i was a particularly well-versed person on
00:25:14like tourettes but apparently no one in america has ever done even the most base like what history
00:25:20research like any awareness of what it is whatsoever and we've known about it in the uk
00:25:26i i don't ever remember a time of not knowing about tourettes like even when i was a kid i think
00:25:30reggie yates did a documentary called super tourettes is that is that that's an actual medical term
00:25:36super turret and what's that so their tics like their physical tics are so intense that they like
00:25:42fall down and it's like funny
00:25:49and obviously like devastating and debilitating for them but like i think they should have come
00:25:54up with a different name it sounds desirable super turret it sounds like what you get if you upgrade
00:25:59if you press the upgrade button when you're adding to the cart yeah it is it's the it is it's the
00:26:04value meal it's a happy meal equivalent yeah yeah yeah and you want to drink with that yeah supersize
00:26:09yeah supersize your turrets yeah so and then so all these hollywood actors coming out and being like
00:26:15i think he meant that why was that word in his brain and i'm like because it's the worst thing you could
00:26:20say in that moment and that's that's the condition wasn't that same guy while on the documentary when
00:26:29his dog was about to cross the road was said to his dog like cross the road nope and then his fight not
00:26:35even his interactions with his favorite animal yeah like he's there's no i mean uh lewis capaldi like
00:26:42the pressure of his second album i don't know whether he gave him tourette's but it sort of
00:26:48caused it to emerge yeah i think like it it can brought it on stress and stuff and like being at
00:26:54the baftas as a guy who's like a school caretaker like janitor i hated everybody going all these poor
00:27:01actors on stage it's like who would you rather be hollywood elite millionaire on stage having a not nice
00:27:08word yeah a not nice word shouted at you or like working class guy who's just going to go back to
00:27:13like mopping floors when he leaves the baftas who has like struggled with a debilitating neurological
00:27:20condition for his whole life and now on the biggest stage he's ever had has displayed it to the entire
00:27:24world yeah and also in a room of people at the baftas they're all supposed to be members of the academy
00:27:30and they're all supposed to have watched all the films so they should all have seen the film about
00:27:36the guy who shouts inappropriate things and they were all like what is going on do your job watch the
00:27:43thing for the award you're going to and if you don't understand something i just he was getting death
00:27:48threats online and at no point did anyone from like the jamie fox side of things who'd like called him
00:27:56racist and all that stuff come out and go oh hey like it should have been edited out because that's
00:28:00a very embarrassing moment for those guys on stage but like it's not this guy's fault the guy's like
00:28:08got a disability so i i i i've been angry about that though since it happened basically
00:28:14it's pretty mean to see unfold uh weird isn't it sort of social decorum so
00:28:23saying the right things behaving in the right way in the right spaces is so highly sought after and and
00:28:30and and that kind of deviation from that behavior it's like we're okay with disabilities for people
00:28:37for like young kids that need help in very obvious ways but this one that's socially difficult to deal
00:28:43with autism is another one or people that have got um ocd and maybe unable to operate in the world in a way
00:28:51that's convenient for everybody else it's like we don't i don't have to like not those ones the
00:28:57difficult conversations of where accessibility meets inclusivity means like he should be like
00:29:02there's people coming out saying he shouldn't have been at the awards thing and i'm like
00:29:05what are we doing here like you're supposed to be the kind of progressive welcoming you see you're
00:29:09telling me that if there was a person in a wheelchair and there was no ramp but they shouldn't have been
00:29:13there suck them army crawl your way onto the stage if a person in a wheelchair had won an award and
00:29:20everyone went ah it's too much fab yeah yeah yeah yeah just someone just launched them up yeah exactly
00:29:24shot put them have you got any shot putters that have done this evening shot put that person up there
00:29:28and what's interesting was um listening to you tell your story about what childhood was like for you
00:29:35and some of those scripts uh certainly for me reflecting on my childhood one of my most common recurring
00:29:42uncomfortable dreams is me doing something to another person that i thought was just a bit of fun or i
00:29:49thought was a normal interaction yeah to then find out that i've crossed some invisible line that i
00:29:56didn't know existed yeah and to then immediately feel horrendous about it yeah the last one of these
00:30:02i had was about two weeks ago or so and it was yasmin who does the guest booking that got you here
00:30:09uh we were walking down the street and i had a like a gatorade bottle like that that had water in and
00:30:14i thought we were just playing about and i sort of splashed some water at her and that turned out to be
00:30:19this huge yeah yeah faux pas that i'd done and immediately i felt terrible and then i woke up
00:30:23and i was i was all i was all anxious and i just woke up and that was it and that's that is a
00:30:28consistent yeah theme not only in my life but also in the dreams that i've had for
00:30:35like a vet like that is the if you were to pick the center of the bullseye of my awkwardness
00:30:42in reality it's me doing a thing and someone being mad at me without me realizing
00:30:49that i'd done it and then finding out importantly occasionally you do something in your life
00:30:54whether it's in work or relationships where you go look this might upset this person but i'm going in
00:31:00with my eyes open and i like still think this is the right thing to do even though it's going to be
00:31:05like uncomfortable or upset them and that's one thing but then like just being so blindsided but
00:31:12what do you think like are you are you interested in the past like do you think you might have autism
00:31:18like i don't want to be one of these i'm going to wear your culture as my costume no but like and
00:31:22god there's enough autistic people that go around diagnosing everyone else yeah that's true
00:31:27i like what would you i have no idea i have absolutely no idea there's certainly some trade
00:31:32i mean again pathologizing anything everything is just some some form of a spectrum right and at
00:31:38some point you breach the threshold for it to be said and now you are depressed and now you are anxious
00:31:45and now you are asperger's and now uh but i i've always made this joke which is maybe a self-protection
00:31:51thing i don't know the difference between being an only child and being autistic
00:31:58you're just an unsocialized boy bingo you weren't introduced to other dogs when you were young
00:32:04well maybe that ramps up your predisposition a little bit because there's all of the memes around
00:32:12well you know people that have got autism can't hold eye contact people that have got autism
00:32:15uh unable to operate socially they they need to do stimming they need to and then you realize actually
00:32:21there's an infinity number of ways that it can show up but then also people's desire to have some
00:32:28form of mental pathology so that they can have a thing i think autism is it is sort of the sexy new
00:32:34if you're going to have a mental malady it's one of the ones that people kind of typically like okay
00:32:40it's like i'm just like you know it's it's a word that gets thrown around an awful lot
00:32:45yeah and that's difficult i think it there's a great book there's two great books by comedians
00:32:49about adult autism diagnosis there's fern brady a strong female character and there's uh pierre
00:32:56novelli why can't i just enjoy things and the real sort of like shot chaser like fern just like mad
00:33:03and pierre's is like and here's why i think but it's really really interesting and um pierre talks
00:33:10about a couple things in that uh where what i where he says like the the terminology like of the word
00:33:20like autism will probably become like defunct reasonably soon because it's a really big umbrella term
00:33:33like a really big umbrella term and a helpful thing was the asperger's
00:33:38category but you're not supposed to say that anymore because he was a nazi
00:33:42who was asperger he was the guy that discovered it yeah invented it i don't know what the word is
00:33:49but discovered or like categorized it as a thing he was like a nazi so it's not named after him
00:33:53anymore so the appropriate term now is like autism level one which is what i have which is asperger's
00:33:58oh okay asperger's was okay and then autism level two and the three levels so you're actually a nazi
00:34:03in this i am a nazi that's i think that's what it means yes um but uh the in this regard in loads of
00:34:10regards yeah um the and then the level two and then level three and it's basically like how much help
00:34:16do you need to exist in like normal neurotypical life so like level one is like you don't need any
00:34:21outside assistance to like go through your life like you can cope with the world and then level two is
00:34:30like you might need some help like or like you know care or whatever and then level three is like
00:34:36you can't exist in the world you're basically full-time care all that stuff and like you know
00:34:40like to have me and then somebody who's non-verbal and hits himself in the head and like cuts their
00:34:45arms by like scratching so repeatedly like it's sort of crazy that we've got the same diagnosis and i
00:34:52get that like look there's people with cancer and then there's people with cancer you know it's like
00:34:57stage one stage two stage three stage four it's a similar thing i guess the autism doesn't develop
00:35:02hopefully hopefully um in that direction but i do think it feels strange what i like about it
00:35:11versus so i got diagnosed with adhd as well i just really want to punch yeah i think it was like buy one
00:35:16get one free or something package deal yeah and uh they i don't like care about that one really as much
00:35:24partly because i think it might be over diagnosed or i would worry that it's over diagnosed because
00:35:31there's medication for it so what's nice about autism is there's no like big pharma money that you can
00:35:36follow to go well they would be motivated to diagnose lots of people with autism because then they could
00:35:42sell these drugs or whatever whereas with adhd they are motivated to diagnose lots of people adhd
00:35:48because there is medication for it so that's why i think the autism one feels a little bit you have
00:35:52been spending a good bit of time in america the big the big pharma conspiracies are already running
00:35:59rampant yeah well the thing is like the nhs is like an amazing thing that is like being a bit over
00:36:06but the big pharma still gets their sort of claws in because they're just selling it to the nhs rather than
00:36:12you know you're sort of whether the money comes direct from you or comes from you through your
00:36:16taxes through the nhs and back out there's still money sort of at the end of it um so i would worry
00:36:22about that a little bit with the adhd diagnosis and i haven't tried the medication for adhd what is
00:36:28it it's like speed that's good yeah it's like fun yeah it's like ritalin but apparently like if you
00:36:36have adhd you like it doesn't it's the inverse it's like just you can do your taxes that's a real
00:36:43that's a real uh like litmus test that should be how you should do it yeah you should say okay take this
00:36:51and then just see if this person starts bouncing off the walls or if they do sit down and and and read
00:36:56i also read an interesting thing and i don't know if this is like even nearly scientifically true
00:37:00but there's a massive comorbidity with autism and a thing called ehlers-danlos syndrome
00:37:04which is like hypermobility and like the soft tissue in your bones and joints and i am like quite
00:37:09hypermobile like my wrist pops out and like things dislocate on me all the time and i haven't someone
00:37:13that plays a bit of sport great yeah wonderful terrible nightmare but so yeah that but then some people
00:37:21have said well what if like they are they're not like happening at the same time sort of by chance
00:37:29or whatever it's just the same thing as in like the soft tissue in your bones and joints it's also
00:37:34that is you you've got you've got bone autism no but it's affecting the soft tissue in your brain
00:37:39because there's different types of tissue in your brain and the connective stuff between okay
00:37:42so you've got brain ella's dandruff yeah i've got hypermobile brain although hypermobile doesn't feel
00:37:48like a good word for how autistic people's brains work they're not exactly flexible
00:37:54yeah what happened with this irish times article thing oh that was interesting
00:37:59i feel a little bit bad about that um i've spoken to the lady who wrote the article and i had spoken to
00:38:04her before she wrote the article and so to fill people in like i there was a write-up about a few
00:38:12different things in the irish times like me sally rooney and kneecap just the big three and and uh
00:38:19and it within it there was sort of like a couple paragraphs of like a review of my
00:38:25uh show that they'd come and seen and i'd like spoken to her on the phone about it and she'd written
00:38:32like really interesting articles about like ireland has an incredibly high gdp and is a very wealthy
00:38:37country but the public service is like our dog like public transport's really bad there's no national
00:38:43health service there's like this that and the other like whereas we have the whole point of this like
00:38:48letting all these corporations come in to dublin and have their offices there
00:38:52is that you do make some money off them and then that goes into like do you benefit from that north
00:38:56of the border and no right no but like the whole yeah um and i think she's really interesting i
00:39:02think she's really clever uh but when she wrote about my show she said that like it was unapologetically
00:39:08local and like if you don't get the references that's your problem and she like quoted another
00:39:13review that gave me two stars at the fringe of someone who clearly just like didn't get the show
00:39:16at all which is one of my favorite reviews actually the two-star one it really made me laugh quite a lot
00:39:21um but i just like she'd phrased it in a way that i was like oh that's a bit annoying like this is
00:39:26quite a big like newspaper and if i were someone that didn't know who vittorio mangeloni was and i
00:39:33read that i would think that's just like it's a bit of a stereotype of northern irish comedians that
00:39:38we just do the you know it's funny because it's local thing of going and also it's inaccessible
00:39:43which means if i was maybe thinking that i was going to buy a ticket and like well i don't speak
00:39:48belfast yeah so it's just like whereas in the show like that was the point i made when i did like a
00:39:53post about it on instagram being like i you know wrote this show in london trialed it all around
00:39:59england did it the edmund fringe did in new york i've not done it in america and in the article she
00:40:05said like i refuse to explain myself but i like truly don't like i i do loads of expositioning
00:40:10like explain and that's like the fun of the show is like going hey this place i'm from is a bit
00:40:14up here's why here's this here's that here's this weird quirk about it and like opening it out to the
00:40:19is like the sort of half of the point of the show that i've written and i was just like a little bit
00:40:24annoyed so i just was like oh you know i'll just post a little thing on instagram and this has
00:40:29happened a couple times recently and this is like i think this don't know if this is an autism thing but
00:40:34like maybe where i just think i'm like having a little bit of fun or like just informing people of
00:40:41something like my run of shows in belfast one of the nights uh like 20 people arrived 30 minutes late
00:40:48and i like asked the audience i was like oh like is it unclear on the website what time this starts and
00:40:55they were like yeah kind of um so in the interval i just went on my on instagram and did like a black
00:41:01square white text and was like oh 20 people just arrived half an hour late for my show
00:41:06um for the rest of this week doors are at this time shows this time except the matinees those are at this
00:41:10time sure this time thanks and it's gotten like more views than most of my stand-up clips
00:41:16i think because people think i'm being like tatty really rude or whatever but it was just like here
00:41:22are the facts of the situation and here's how i can help and then i think with the iris times i was
00:41:26like just trying to do a little i didn't like the way this person phrased themselves about my show
00:41:30and then uh it like just blew up in like a kind of mad way where it has like 40 000 likes or something
00:41:38and then some people going i think you've misread the article and i but i agree she was trying to
00:41:42compliment me in the article but i just i do i don't think it came across in a way that was like
00:41:46nice so i tried to do a little post about it and then she reached out and was like oh i think you've
00:41:50kind of taken me out of context and i was like you and me both sister like you know we're kind of
00:41:56it was a funny phone call she was like are you going to apologize and i was like are you like we
00:42:00both pissed each other off we're both probably in the wrong a little bit yeah yeah and didn't
00:42:07phrase ourselves perfectly and i maybe shouldn't have put her name like in the screenshot i kept
00:42:12her name and like the article but i'm also like your name's in the newspaper beside where the article
00:42:17is like it's not like it's hard to find out who wrote the article but then the problem with the
00:42:22internet is just full of cots isn't it so like people sent her like horrible messages
00:42:26on instagram and stuff and i was like i had like i don't know how much responsibility i need to take
00:42:30for my audience but like i'm sorry that that happened that wasn't my intention and like you know
00:42:36we're like friendly enough now and just have a sort of agree to disagree thing on that in it i think she
00:42:42didn't freeze herself well she thinks i didn't freeze myself well and like i don't know like it's very
00:42:47easy as a comedian to do this whole like everybody i don't care and if somebody has a go at me whoa i'm
00:42:54just a comedian or whatever like but i don't like that's not how i like to exist in the world like i
00:42:59upset somebody so i reached out to them and had a phone call and was like hey let's talk this way
00:43:05we might not agree at the end of the conversation but i have a half apology each yeah if even i don't
00:43:10think either of us really apologized but it was just like okay i sort of understand where you're coming
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00:44:18sleep.com modern wisdom and modern wisdom at checkout i've been watching the fallout after the
00:44:25roast of kevin hart thing it's been kind of fascinating to see and i was thinking about what
00:44:29would be the difference if it had happened in the uk because uh i don't know from i've been in the us for
00:44:36four years now but obviously still listen to a lot of you listen to a lot of finn listen to the screen
00:44:41rock boys you know listening to yeah i've said to you before this is my it's my way to tap back
00:44:47into a little bit of british culture it sort of reminds me that jaffa cakes and the in-betweeners
00:44:51and you know like wayne lineker still exists like it's very important for me to have my cultural way
00:44:57markers three pillars of the uk correct jaffa cakes in between us and wayne lineker wow
00:45:03it's true um but i was thinking because you guys did a roast recently maybe not you know not netflix
00:45:09and kevin hart or whatever but and then what's happening with whatever we want to call it like
00:45:14british comedy now uh it seems like the new what i'm seeing is a new sort of half generation that's
00:45:23stepping through which have been mostly borne out by the internet although everyone's done a million
00:45:27years of standard i'm aware that everyone's driven to yeah like woking and shithouse exactly like
00:45:33done all of those things like they've done that for a long time and now they've just burst on the
00:45:36internet but from getting public awareness people are just starting to break through and that's really
00:45:42cool and it feels like there's this next sort of wave yeah that's that's on its way which is real
00:45:48exciting but to see the number of different factions and maybe this is just because america's such a big
00:45:55country and so many people hate each other it's very contentious uh but it's like a an earthquake
00:46:04occurs this big thing happens and then there's all of these aftershocks that go on afterward so then
00:46:10chelsea handler's going to go on don lemon's podcast and she's going to talk about this and then shane's
00:46:13going to talk to matt and they're going to say this thing and then tony i don't know whether he's piped
00:46:17up yet but he's gonna and everyone's waiting it's almost you know what it is it's almost like
00:46:22someone's had a boxing fight and then you're waiting for the post-fight press conference yeah and
00:46:27you're waiting to hear well you know i just wasn't on form this evening the training camp was great but
00:46:32tonight i just wasn't about or he missed weight i can't believe we've had to pay the purse like then
00:46:37we need to run it back and i don't i haven't seen that level of cattiness in the uk i don't know whether
00:46:48it's not big enough for the factions to go whether i'm just not paying enough attention whether there's
00:46:53not a large enough pie for everybody to be worried about that you all need to keep in good friends
00:46:59because like the likelihood of you bumping into someone is probably higher than it is in the us
00:47:04there's this enforcement mechanism if i just don't want to have to face you i don't have to bump into
00:47:09you and feel like you've got this unsaid stuff like you and this journalist lady maybe or maybe
00:47:13there's more decorum more politeness i don't know i just i was thinking about it because a few clips
00:47:18popped up of your guys's roast from a little while ago and then the kevin hart one and i was comparing
00:47:23the two and i thought it was kind of interesting about how uh yeah the the difference in the post-fight
00:47:28press conference well i think like the roast thing is such a big like it's been in american culture for
00:47:36a long time like the don rickles stuff it's much older in this country than it is in the uk culturally
00:47:44whereas because like we've met like you could very easily i don't know if he would do it but like you
00:47:49could do like a roast of jimmy carr like in the uk on netflix but like you know whether that would cut
00:47:55through in the uk or what that was and you know that was the have a word podcast uh did that roast
00:48:03that we did in the uk and i think like it didn't it's sort of people who've been on their podcast and
00:48:09we all have our own followings and like and it was also just on their patreon and clips are just going
00:48:13out as i clips but like i don't know the roast thing's fun i think it's become like reaction has
00:48:20become such a big part of culture maybe particularly in america where it's like this person reacts to
00:48:26this thing it's half of youtube is videos that have gone viral and then people just watching those
00:48:32videos did it start with two girls one cup maybe it might have that was patient zero of reaction double
00:48:40zero because like there's more videos of people watching two girls one cup than obviously the one
00:48:45video that is two girls one cup you know what i mean like there's all these people being like oh
00:48:49that's disgusting and i think like i don't know i thought a lot of that roast stuff was like
00:48:56they're all funny jokes i saw all the like lots of the jokes at the comedy store the week
00:49:01of because everybody was like practicing their jokes i was at that crazy night at the comedy store where
00:49:07chapelle showed up and then brought on gillis and then brought on louis ck and then brought on chris rock
00:49:14and then brought on uh kenya west kenya west was at the comedy store so i well it was the day after i
00:49:21landed in la i went to the uh i didn't have anything to do on the sunday night like the day before the
00:49:26netflix is a joke festival started and i was like i'll just go watch like the open mic at the comedy store
00:49:32to like i like to do that when i arrive in a place i've never been before like see some like really
00:49:36bad stand-up comedy so i picked a great night well i do but like well because the problem with the
00:49:42comedy store is the open mic becomes the proper show um and i just as like a confidence boost wanted
00:49:47to be like let's watch some people and to be fair they were and uh i was sort of
00:49:53enjoying it and i'd been there for like maybe an hour when the proper show started and then they
00:49:58started bringing on people but the problem is i arrived and was like tried to do like i i don't
00:50:04want to be like again i think didn't know what the social norm was but walked up to the door and was
00:50:08like oh hi i'm a comedian in town for the netflix festival and i was just hoping to watch the show
00:50:13and they were like yes 20 and i was like okay that's like fine whatever give him 20 i was like i
00:50:20don't think okay that's fine give him 20 and then they're like okay put your phone in this little bag
00:50:26blah blah blah then they walk me through and sit me in the front row and i'm like this is uh this
00:50:31is silly that i'm here but like because i'm not a great laugher i like a comedy show i don't know
00:50:36like i'm okay but like not the worst but i sort of just sit there and like quietly enjoy and analyze
00:50:42it because i'm so like in the weeds of what it is yeah and uh but i'm sat at the front in the corner
00:50:48and like nearly every comedian on like the main show referenced the fact that i wasn't laughing like
00:50:53this guy hates it not knowing that yeah i was loving it i was having a good time polly shore
00:50:59called me gay for his whole set um it was like quite fun call me a gay nazi um it was like fun
00:51:06um and then uh yeah and then i noticed the security going around and taking people's apple watches even
00:51:13though they'd already got everybody's phones and like putting those in pockets and i was like oh somebody
00:51:18somebody famous is about to walk on and then that's when they brought chapelle on
00:51:22and then he brought on all those people so i saw a lot of those roasts and it's so funny the one
00:51:26that's gotten like gillis in trouble on the internet or whatever or the one that chelsea
00:51:31handler's kicking up kicking up with us about like that's the one when gillis was on i was like oh i'm
00:51:36not a bad audience member i just have a high bar yeah i was just folded and half laughing it's just
00:51:41unbelievable yeah and um yeah the joke about uh kevin hart is so short they're gonna have to lynch
00:51:48him from a bonsai tree that's the one i was like recounting to people is the best one i'd heard that
00:51:52i was really excited to see on netflix and that's the one that everybody's like i can't believe you
00:51:55you don't make jokes about lynching yeah chelsea handler said lynching's worse than rape
00:52:01i mean i don't know why we're doing a league table yeah
00:52:08i think it's not a competition i think they're both bad yeah it's not a competition i think they're
00:52:12both really bad it's just it's interesting to see this fallout and to think how these people
00:52:19are on stage to try and achieve the same thing like to have a good time supposedly to have a good time
00:52:24i think that's that's a misunderstanding people have about roasts is some people think it's like a
00:52:28competition and like somebody wants to win and somebody won't like that's very american yeah but
00:52:34even roast battles i'm like this is a double act you're like that's how you should view it and that's
00:52:39more dan's partner than a fight it's an ensemble show and you're trying to perform for other people
00:52:43you're not trying to just be mean you're trying to say really funny things about your friends and
00:52:49colleagues and famous people and stuff and i think like yeah i don't know like i try not to get caught
00:52:56up in this like everybody's too offended nowadays everybody just has too much of an opinion nowadays
00:53:01it's like all right you didn't like it and an infinite number of opportunities to talk about it
00:53:07yeah and broadcasting yeah yeah yeah everyone has their own little platform and an incentive to
00:53:11say things and it's hard to not like you know i'm on a podcast right now there's a big podcast and i
00:53:16could give my hot take on the roast of kevin hart and it could be a clip and it could do well and
00:53:22whatever but like i liked it it was a bit long some people didn't do great but they're actresses not
00:53:28comedians so what the fuck you are there we are that's it that's it that's a nice you know like
00:53:36there's the most lukewarm take that we can so much like so many people going oh you should do a post
00:53:41about this you should do a cat to camera video about this no i've written the show that i've spent loads
00:53:47the time on and that's what i'm you know there is this there is definitely a sense that comedians are
00:53:52like uh ammunition bullets in the chamber of one particular perspective or another that this thing
00:54:00has happened and we need someone to comment on it and we know that if we try and get someone who's too
00:54:04serious it's going to come across as kind of stodgy and it doesn't really work on the internet but
00:54:09we've got this guy and we think that this guy mostly agrees with us yeah so if we can make him aware
00:54:15of this thing we can kind of point him like a rifle and then you can you can pull the trigger
00:54:19and he'll he'll do something and that'll take down i've been kind of obsessed with this this idea
00:54:24that i heard this week of a cringe cancellation so you can cancel somebody because they did something
00:54:30illegal you can cancel somebody because they said something reprehensible or whatever it is
00:54:34but there's a much more pernicious type of cancellation which is i think what people are
00:54:37attempting to use comedians for which is i want you to make this person's brand equity so toxic to be
00:54:44associated with wow that they become cringe cancelled yeah yeah i think that's probably
00:54:52quite powerful as an idea i wonder who who would i who what's an example of someone who you think has
00:54:57been like cringe cancelled somebody made a joke about them that was so funny uh shetty and bartlett
00:55:02got close to it when you and mike did that that's the canonical example
00:55:10wizards of nothing that was the one that's true that's one of my favorites
00:55:16that that went interstellar but that's what that's the kind of thing that i'm talking about which is
00:55:20like if if if and this may be not even it's done in advance we're gonna try and say this thing to make it so uncool or whatever
00:55:29but for the most part like uh a lot of criticisms around russell brown this is a this is a two-pronged
00:55:34assault right the real cancellation but also the cringe cancel yeah yeah which comes in because a lot
00:55:38of the time if someone's uh
00:55:43virtue gets chipped away at that opens up the opportunity for oh maybe the momentum's slowing
00:55:50which means that we can also get in there and do the and do the cringe thing too yeah but it's not
00:55:54always prefabricated i'm not saying that every single time but that these things can happen
00:55:58by accident or they can be uh someone can try to construct them but either way if you make it
00:56:04basically uncool embarrassing to like to listen to someone yeah that is
00:56:10you know what they remember the r0 number from covid like for every person that gets infected
00:56:15however many more people so for instance um the psychology of money book by morgan hausel my friend
00:56:21for every person that buys the book another 1.2 people buy the book okay wow because they like it
00:56:28so much and it's so widely applicable and managing your money is such an important thing that the total
00:56:34addressable market is like eight billion people yeah so they so every month i think i'm still right on
00:56:39this every month since it launched like three years ago it sold more copies yeah which is
00:56:44fucking insane well that's that that's like books word of mouth is like the only way to sell books
00:56:50yes like there's you can put you can't put up a billboard of a book like nobody i don't care
00:56:54but if you say dude you need to read this or better i bought it for you so there it is money right
00:57:00literally um but if you can do the opposite of that if you can make the r0 number less yeah that for
00:57:07every person that sees this thing fewer people want to be associated you know what i mean yeah it's
00:57:12this sort of negative i listen to jay sherry's podcast so you don't have to
00:57:20well i think uh uh um uh brian callen good friend firing the kid that has been on the receiving end
00:57:27of this that is a real difficult spiral to come because how do you reverse engineer someone that's
00:57:34having a that is saying this is not something that you should listen to and because i'm saying
00:57:40that you shouldn't listen to it fewer people want to listen to it which means it's very human and then
00:57:45if you try to push back against that it's just more cringe and more cringe and more cringe it's a
00:57:49horrible sort of spiral to get yourself into but it's like i think it's a worry of like social isolation
00:57:54isn't it right of like it's cringe to be into that it's like oh better not yes well it's like that um
00:58:00bill burr joke about uh roller skating do you know he said like roller skating was massive until that
00:58:06one homophobic joke in the 90s and then everybody put the roller skates in the bin which is what's the
00:58:10hardest thing about roller skating telling your dad you're gay
00:58:19okay so yeah it's like a roller skating cancellation that's exactly what i mean yeah that's precisely
00:58:23what i mean but this it can happen for anything right it can happen for bands it can happen for tv
00:58:28stations it can happen for whatever overexposure is a big thing i think for like actors as well
00:58:34where people are just sick of seeing somebody who would be an example of that i think nick cage was
00:58:38probably not far off it at one point but then actually went through it so far he kind of did
00:58:42the full horseshoe that he full circled and came back out the other side of the yeah the cringe thing
00:58:47um the rock actually got cringe cancelled without being properly the rock is actually the canonical
00:58:54example of this and then it seems to me like he's trying to do another he's trying to do a rebrand
00:59:00with being edgy swearing more less family friendly uh and the kevin hart roast yeah because that was
00:59:07that felt like oh cats out of the bag with saying retard the rock said it you know what i mean like
00:59:13the rock is the overton window that's ex that is exactly what my friend george said precisely he's
00:59:19like holy fucking the rocks there yeah that is yeah he's as hollywood as overton windowy as you can get
00:59:26yeah i don't know if that's a good thing that the rock is the rock is the center of culture
00:59:32yeah that doesn't feel great that doesn't feel like all of the generally accepted opinions are
00:59:38represented in an enormous sort of freak like he is a freak you know what i mean
00:59:46pisses and bottles on set and stuff apparently i didn't hear about that yeah that's interesting
00:59:50because he's working hard chris uh that's what i need that's what i need i need one of those down
00:59:57here to show just how hard i'm a little catheter that'd be cool that'd be cool yeah uh i i don't know
01:00:05that it's very surprising to think how far back would you need to go for that roast to not be allowed on
01:00:13the internet three years four years maybe that's in the netflix roast allowed on the internet oh
01:00:18sorry i was allowed allowed on netflix i broadcast yeah um shows how much i've seen it online but then
01:00:25it's just cycles isn't it isn't it just pendulum swinging and stuff like that you know if you look
01:00:30at the don rickles roasts i mean you all see racist jokes like talk to don rickles but i mean
01:00:38you couldn't have put that out in 2020 yeah people went a bit mad but what when was at what point would
01:00:45that have been allowed this year one year ago two years ago three years ago because it wouldn't have
01:00:50been six years pretty recently it's probably one or two really yeah and i try not to like i don't know
01:00:56pay much heed to that stuff like what is allowed what isn't allowed is that because you're purposefully
01:01:05not trying to be an edge lord yeah well i'm purposely trying not to come across as an edge lord i'm not
01:01:11saying things because they're edgy aside from the fact that you have to say things that create tension in
01:01:15the room to be a stand-up comedian and like you know if if you're in a topic that people aren't comfortable
01:01:21with then you can get a nice laugh at the end of it but it's not just for the sake of being edgy
01:01:27well that's something everyone's talking about at the moment which is how often are the jokes funny
01:01:31and how often is it just a forbidden sentence yeah i mean i'm having been like around america for a few weeks
01:01:38like like there is something a little bit embarrassing about some of american comedy where it's like if you
01:01:47have a joke that doesn't work if you just stick a slur at the end people will clap because they think
01:01:53you're like fighting this good fight to like it's the right wing equivalent of we don't like that orange
01:02:00guy exactly yeah it's all just clatter and it's all really really boring and pandering and sort of
01:02:09nonsense like a big thing with my to show that i'm touring at the minute is like
01:02:13i don't think anybody uh should be comfortable the whole time but for different reasons like i think
01:02:20some people who might lean more towards the right or be more there for the edgy or dark stuff
01:02:25they'll be uncomfortable because i'm like reasonably vulnerable in the middle of the show and
01:02:29sincere at points and talk about difficult things personally but then the the people who like
01:02:36that vulnerable narrative thematic stuff will be uncomfortable with some of the jokes that i make
01:02:41later on and it's just like yeah you want to stretch your audience you don't want to like
01:02:45give them what they want and i think a lot of american comedians are big into getting big rounds of
01:02:49applause for being saying naughty words it's like you know when you're like 12 and you find out what a
01:02:55female dog is called and all your mates are like oh my god like you can say like you can call it a
01:03:01bitch because it's a bitch that feels like what a lot of american comedy is at the minute where it's
01:03:05like we're allowed to say it's nice naughty i don't know what what's happening with the the vulnerability
01:03:11side but there's definitely a performative there's a performative element of both there's a performative
01:03:15element of pushing beyond what is allowed this is the this is the oven window i'm going to push on that
01:03:20side but then you also create the incentive to perform in the other direction which is to just have
01:03:25endless amounts of vulnerability uh like i heard this term recently uh speed running relatability
01:03:33someone trying to like hurry their way through just trauma dumping on you in a in a desperate
01:03:38attempt to be like i am a real person let me show you how much of a real person i am yeah
01:03:42and uh that also is performative and that also has the potential to be cringe but like when authenticity
01:03:50is uh incentivized because people people seem to like that they seem to resonate with that what you
01:03:56end up with is a world of people trying to work out how to reverse engineer authenticity that genuinely
01:04:01looks authentic but doesn't have to be authentic like it doesn't have to be sincere it just needs to
01:04:08appear authentic it just needs to align with whatever your brand is and whatever your stick is russell brand
01:04:14whatever sort of whatever people want to hear from you like i think that's a big thing with a lot of
01:04:19comedy audiences they want to know what angle you're coming from from the start you know particularly
01:04:25in america i think it's like nobody in america is american everybody i'm italian or i'm irish i'm
01:04:31this or i'm that it's like and then all their jokes are filtered through that lens where
01:04:35i sort of am slightly averse to that where it's like i can tell you what i think it's nothing to do
01:04:40with me being irish none of these things that define me entirely i'm not just irish i'm not just
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01:05:59slash modern wisdom you built a show around a clip of a 10-pin bowler like that what is it about that
01:06:07clip that made you so fascinated with it so what's interesting is i so the show is called who do you
01:06:14think you are i am the 10-pin bowler is pete weber uh who you might have seen on the internet shouting
01:06:20who do you think you are i am and i knew when i was like working towards the show that it was going
01:06:26to be a show about identity and how people perceive me and how i perceive myself and i just thought that
01:06:30was like a funny meme title for that show but as i was writing the show and performing the show i realized
01:06:38that like loads of people hadn't seen the clip which is crazy to me because in my mind it goes viral
01:06:44like once a month to a crazy level um but like most people i performed on the tour hadn't seen
01:06:53the video at all so i had to like write an explanation of the video at the start of the show
01:06:58which was a nightmare but like actually very fun and like exciting like a fun bit and a fun thing to
01:07:05explain um and then as i was working on the show i was like oh this is like i think he's me like in
01:07:15the show like i didn't sit down being like i'm going to write a show where i sort of in the subtext
01:07:21of the show i am this professional bowler who is like kind of my hero because of this clip
01:07:26like it just sort of became evident to me as i was talking about my experiences of that last couple
01:07:30years of like coming across very arrogant to other people pissing people off without realizing i was
01:07:35pissing them off and then trying to re-find a bit of that swagger having like put myself in a bit of
01:07:41a box and avoided that for a while and like like doing that sort of like wrestling thing and pete
01:07:47weber's a big wrestling fan of like the heel turn of being like you this is like a fun thing to play
01:07:52with of like staring into this kid of being like i'm arrogant and therefore like you know pete weber's
01:07:57the bad boy of bowling which is like a very funny thing to be like it's a crazy thing to be the bad
01:08:03boy of but so stand-up comedy like it's a very embarrassing sort of weird art form kind of and
01:08:09it's like so yeah it just came out of it um naturally and i was really annoyed because he
01:08:15lives in nashville but he was away when i was doing my show there and i was supposed to do my
01:08:20that show about him in nashville and i really wanted to do it for him and i don't know if he's
01:08:26watched it he follows me on instagram and i did message him being like oh hey this special came
01:08:30out on youtube and he was like yeah man i'm gonna watch it this week then he hasn't replied since
01:08:33but i don't know if he just really didn't like it
01:08:38what was the uh putting yourself in a box thing like regressing back and then coming back out
01:08:44i'm interested in so the story from that uh show is like i
01:08:50a clip of my podcast got screen recorded and sent around lots of comedian whatsapp groups
01:08:55uh where i was saying talking about having unexpected having an unexpectedly good run at
01:09:00the edinburgh fringe festival and i was like oh people keep telling me i'm the guy this year like
01:09:04it's my year to be the guy i'm the guy and i was saying that i was finding that really stressful i
01:09:08was having lots of panic attacks like how am i going to live up these weren't people who'd seen the
01:09:12show they just heard the buzz or whatever and i was like how do i live up to whatever this is
01:09:16it's kind of the lewis capaldi effect yeah just like god like i can't i mean on a much smaller
01:09:21scale but like that kind of thing and then so i was being made fun of but like they cut off the
01:09:29podcast clip out of context where it's just me going people keep telling me i'm the guy this year
01:09:33and that and that got sent around and then people come up to me during the festival and be like
01:09:38oh it's the guy and i'd be like oh what's happening again because i didn't find out i didn't
01:09:44find out about the whatsapp groups until a month after so i'd had this month of my life that i was
01:09:48like this is the best month of my career so far so exciting really proud of what i achieved and i
01:09:54had a really fun time with lots of different comedians like it was difficult to points but i had a
01:09:57really fun time and then a month later all of that was like oh fuck like everybody was making fun
01:10:02the veil got lifted behind my back it's like my throwing water on yasmin dream yeah it's that i
01:10:07thought we were all having fun i thought this was a good time yeah and everybody just thought i was like a
01:10:11wanker which is like truly like if i'd been sent that clip of another comedian i would have like
01:10:16ripped into them endlessly because it's like funny um and i get how it came across but i think for fear
01:10:21of that happening again there was like maybe a year and a half two years where i like tried to put a
01:10:27lid on like a bit of the self-promotion a bit of the like bravado yeah that stuff which i think is like
01:10:34part of my like has always been part of my approach to comedy but from doing that show and touring that
01:10:42show like building that part of myself back up and being slightly less ashamed of like yeah i'm like
01:10:50ambitious i want to like it like do lots of cool stuff and i i think i can be really good at stand-up
01:10:55comedy and like the reason i do stand-up comedy is i think i can i think i can be one of the best in the
01:11:00world at it and i didn't have that when i was like a musician or whatever but i felt like with stand-up
01:11:05comedy i was like i'm not saying definitely and it's also objective but i was like i think i can be
01:11:09one of the best in the world at this so i've kind of been working on getting my mojo back in that sense
01:11:15and you kind of have to because i tell you what's hard to do without any bravado is promote a stand-up
01:11:21comedy tour on instagram authentically yeah to be like hey come see the show it's like it's fine
01:11:29it's not gonna work and there's loads of comedians going around and go all fucking hate doing this
01:11:33self-promo stuff and i'm like yeah that's the job i'm sorry you're sort of in marketing but you're also
01:11:39going to be sad if you only play to a half-filled theater so like you yeah i mean that's something else
01:11:46that really resonates with me uh i think certainly from childhood maybe this is working class you know
01:11:54i'm from stockton right stock nantes it's i i i i've tried to put across just how horrendous the
01:12:03place is a beautiful theater yep and then everything else correct is off yeah you've played in stock i've
01:12:10done the ark in stock i went to go and see that what's that fucking world war one um play about a
01:12:17horse war horse war horse you stupid it's like my dream it's like my dream world war one play about a
01:12:29horse that was so mean of me but that was close what's that book about the jungle
01:12:59anyway i went to go and see that in ark in the ark yeah in ark um
01:13:13for a good while i don't know whether it's just a british thing northeast of the uk whether it is
01:13:20you need an amount of charm to be able to carry off bravado or ego or like confidence there's
01:13:26definitely the tall poppy thing if don't get too big for your boots i mean me how many times i know
01:13:30ireland's got that like notions is what we call it he's got notions as in you have notions that you're
01:13:36somebody oh if you're accused of having notions that would be a bad thing i think i would be accused
01:13:41of having notions too keen just don't know your place yeah yeah it's tall poppy it's that's the
01:13:46exact same thing you're right i like that well i don't like it but you know what i mean yeah um
01:13:50and what i learned as being an incredibly unpopular kid in school highly under socialized who played
01:13:56cricket so like you know just in case i was going to make it worse on myself yeah i'm going to play
01:14:01cricket at a moderately high level right and wear whites all the time uh what i learned was if you
01:14:09really aggressively downplay what it is that you've got going on if you don't talk about your ambitions
01:14:15if you don't sound like you're too big for your boots i think i reverse engineered that a lot of
01:14:19people find you more likable in that way that they don't see you as a threat it's not quite the same
01:14:27thing as humility it's like it's like it's kind of like performative humility in a way it's meekness
01:14:32isn't it correct yeah that's a good way to put it yeah well they're going to inherit the earth
01:14:37according to the bible jordan peterson would agree yeah uh and but it's it's not
01:14:45genuine meekness it's more of fear of judgment where you're i'm not gonna i won't say too much i
01:14:51want to do to the you know what changed this for me the movie coach carter i don't think i've ever
01:14:56seen that brother what is the point in talking to you you have to have watched coach carter i haven't
01:15:03what's it about basketball so samuel jackson is a basketball coach okay in a sort of impoverished
01:15:09neighborhood richmond the richmond oilers and there's this recurring thing where he asks a player
01:15:14timo cruz what's your deepest fear and he like refuses to answer and then he like just but it
01:15:21keeps coming up what's your deepest fear what's your deepest fear and then when timo cruz i think
01:15:27like a family member of his gets like shot but he's like he turned his back on the team because
01:15:32he didn't want to go to class he didn't want to do all the strict like classic sports movie stuff
01:15:35like you have to have this gpa you have to turn up you have to blah blah blah and like be respectful
01:15:39wear a tie all that stuff he'd like stormed out but then he had like really horrible family stuff
01:15:45and then he got back into the team and blah blah blah blah blah really dramatic moment in the film
01:15:52uh he stands up and says our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate it's that we are powerful
01:15:57beyond measure isn't it is um it is not our darkness but our light that scares us the most
01:16:03and it's this poem that already exists i can't remember who it's by but he does the whole poem
01:16:07and like like i think at some point in my life i was like yeah you know if you shine your light
01:16:13it emboldens other people to shine theirs as well and i think yeah it's so easy to be like that tall
01:16:20poppy thing and yeah when do you think you got over that because it's like you're probably a very good
01:16:24example of that of like being like i'm going to interview people like there's a level of like who
01:16:31the are you and why would we well yeah for sure i think to be honest i think i'm still playing it i'm
01:16:37still certainly still downplaying whenever i get asked about what's going on like i did this big
01:16:41interview with um for like highlife magazine which is the british airways thing i did something in the
01:16:47times recently i did a bunch of others and if you read through it it sounds like it sounds like a
01:16:51comedian tried it sounds like a very very bad comedian trying to do self-deprecating like every
01:16:56single line is trying to be self-deprecating because well you know i i i being from the northeast of
01:17:04the uk i didn't have particularly big dreams anyway so it's nice that i've surpassed them some
01:17:07shit like that like at every single step of the way rather than like you have goals i'm the eighth
01:17:13biggest podcaster in the world yeah right like i just that's something that i can also you're not
01:17:17done you are that you're annoyed that you're eighth yes you want to be seventh or sixth or fifth or fourth
01:17:22or third maybe maybe but like that's okay like it's okay it's certainly still there it's certainly
01:17:29still there and i think it gets to a point where it actually starts to seep inside of your own ambition
01:17:34um a little bit and you go i'm believing my own reverse hype yeah in a way yeah it's nothing yeah
01:17:41i'll just i'll i'll sort of keep it where it is i don't want to make waves get too big for my boots
01:17:45have notions you know be a kino etc and uh like trying to work through that i think is is a really
01:17:50interesting challenge i i to be honest i i still think it's there like i'm doing the thing in spite of
01:17:56it not because of it yeah i mean like in a way it's a good thing to keep an eye on not to have a
01:18:05runaway ego yeah and i think that's the sort of what the ego the super ego the id like all of those
01:18:10things balancing each other out and like you gotta keep a little bit of it in check but you just gotta
01:18:16know what it is and when it's useful when is ego useful and when are you bragging versus being like
01:18:22grateful for what you've managed to achieve do you know what i think it might be i think it might be a
01:18:27deep down belief that i'm so unlikable that i need to compensate for that unlike ability by
01:18:36doing by adding in additional upgrades to the personality which includes not ever well i know
01:18:43that for the most part there is a you need to have like surplus like ability to be able to have an ego
01:18:48so if i don't ever display an ego that means that the likability that i think is probably lower can
01:18:55be lower which means that i'm not going to push over and accidentally cause some sort of an issue
01:18:59i think that that's i think that's probably a big part of it and uh yeah it's interesting but
01:19:04one of the things that uh i certainly talk about at my live show is doing the thing in spite of
01:19:11not thinking that you should be able to like doing it anyway and being able to turn up and
01:19:17do the apollo or or or sit down with matthew mcconaughey or you know whatever whatever the
01:19:22fuck um or turn down donald trump on the podcast like to say no to opportunities too like that
01:19:31you turned on only podcaster that did last year no two years ago i picked the right part of the
01:19:38manosphere yes we did it yes i was i was so i we've met twice and i'm so proud of you
01:19:51that is that rocks and i know you're like like meek about like that i mean it shouldn't be a high bar to
01:19:58surpass like interview a guy that's sort of bringing in fascism but like nice one man i think that's
01:20:08fucking cool it was it was definitely a rarity to the the media team reached out to me after the
01:20:13election that's made my day i'm sorry this is so great does it really put on this put the hat on
01:20:19i'm gonna put this on instead so yeah the media team reached out to me and they were like you know
01:20:28that i think of all of the people that got offered it the only one that said no was you you are aware
01:20:32of that and i was like okay i guess i don't know i didn't have i what what am i gonna i'm not gonna
01:20:38get anything out of that conversation was my yeah i would be far more interested in speaking to him now
01:20:43and i think it's far less um um influential and potentially yeah well it's not like world changing
01:20:50or cantankerous or whatever and there's less pressure i was like i don't i don't i feel like
01:20:56i am going to be able to do the job that is necessary regardless of what you think about trump
01:21:01the guy is a generational communicator and in the space of 55 minutes i'm not going to be able to i sat
01:21:07down with bernie sanders and he was like a slippery eel and i i'm like wow this is um but it's like
01:21:13rolling with the brazilian jiu-jitsu black belt or something it's incredible more times than you
01:21:18can even imagine he's been in congress longer than i've been alive yeah so i'm like this is an unfair
01:21:23fight yeah uh but anyway um saying yes to things saying no to things having the dreams doing this
01:21:29stuff yeah all of that all of that um but definitely is a a good role model for hey you can not believe
01:21:36in yourself and still make it yeah like isn't that an incredible fucking like motivational that
01:21:43you know you've got to see it before you achieve it or whatever it's like hey what about if you
01:21:47achieve it and you still don't see it yeah because that is also a path and far more people i think
01:21:53have got at least in the uk have been held back by a lack of confidence than a lack of competence
01:22:00it's like hey you're way better than you think you are and there's a guy out there who's half as good
01:22:05as you with twice your confidence yeah making 10 times the progress yeah yeah because they're just
01:22:11putting themselves in the right situations and going to the rooms and all the rest of the things
01:22:14uh but yeah you can kind of you can just do things you can you can just do things and apparently that is
01:22:21kind of the same as believing in yourself but i think you sort of have to believe in your
01:22:27like inherent like good stuff about you but like that you will keep yourself in check
01:22:32you know in like a way where it's like like knowing deep down like no i'm like a i'm not a bad guy i'm not a
01:22:39complete narcissist or whatever so i can step a little bit out into the world and like even if i
01:22:45push with like everything i have to be as out there and confident as possible like because you've got
01:22:52all these worries like you're really now it's so unlikely that you're gonna really overshoot yeah yeah
01:22:58yeah isn't that interesting yeah it's so funny to think about uh
01:23:04the fear that you have of being that thing meaning that you're almost certainly never going to be that
01:23:11thing that line about like if you're worried that you're a psychopath you're probably not a psychopath
01:23:15yeah i worry about that with the autism stuff very simple like that you've manifested your own autism
01:23:22no very psychopathy symptoms sociopath versus autism
01:23:28there's like there's like one thing that's not the same what's the thing i can't remember what it is
01:23:33but it's like you're perilously close to being a sociopath yeah it does people probably do you
01:23:36reckon anyone's ever thought that before yeah i think lots of people who aren't diagnosed with
01:23:41autism before they get diagnosed with autism they're like like this i'm really worried that i'm like a
01:23:47incorrectly matched yeah i'm a bad person yeah not that i don't i don't care about other people i
01:23:52don't care about whatever like i don't know that authentic authenticity thing is really difficult
01:23:57though as well like i think it's very easy for that to just make you do nothing it's like what do you
01:24:02want to do what aligns with like who you are deep down inside it's like i don't know i probably just
01:24:06want to sit in and like read my book you know like but like what i think i have like quite bad like
01:24:14anxiety maybe to do with the autism stuff so i've never been able to trust the gut thing you know
01:24:19when people go like i'll just trust your gut i'm like i am terrified of everything i ever do i'm
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01:25:33interesting you i've heard you talk as well about how all of the interactions or many of the interactions
01:25:37that you have are kind of prefabricated there's a response that i what before somebody asks me a
01:25:44question i have an idea of what it is that i'm going to say already and uh i think that is a way to not
01:25:53need to rely on instinct as much i think because as well my instincts are so like intense conversationally
01:26:01like i just want to ask really like difficult questions like i was hanging out with my uncle
01:26:06and he travels loads for work like he's all over the world doing this like big corporate thing
01:26:12and i was like we were just like i have a unborn chat of like how's this person in the family how's
01:26:18that person in the family blah blah blah blah and then i was like are you still like enjoying the travel
01:26:23stuff and he was like no not really and i was like oh okay like what's your and i sort of stopped myself
01:26:31from going okay well but how does it make you feel like what are you how can you fix that what's this
01:26:37what's that with you like i really want to interrogate people's like and it's not to be like i think
01:26:41they're wrong or they're doing the wrong thing and i want to pick it apart it's like i just want to like
01:26:45them to talk me through their thought process and just so i find that so interesting like the reasons
01:26:51people do things also because there's often no reason like they haven't actually conceptualized
01:26:56that there are other options and they might like want to do something momentum is a hell of a
01:27:02restrictor on that oh this is what i've always done this is what i do do or whatever it's the next
01:27:06logical step let's keep going yeah yeah there's a a cool idea of sliding versus deciding and it's
01:27:14like from couples counseling stuff that you move on to the next step of the relationship we're hanging
01:27:21out on an evening and then it's a situation ship and then it's a relationship and then you know you
01:27:24come over a bit and then you got a toothbrush and you got a draw and we're kind of living together and
01:27:28now there's a golden retriever and oh we should get married and now there's a kid and you know you
01:27:31wake up with a couple of kids and a golden retriever in a house and you go
01:27:35at no point did i feel like i decided to get into this and it happens with a lot of things in life
01:27:40people slide through a career well you know i i didn't know what to do at university so i did business
01:27:45did business studies and then you know i got a job at i got a job at kpmg kpmg is great and then you
01:27:50know i just like you you stay here and then got a promotion yeah i think it's the same with comedy
01:27:58like the next logical thing for me to do is like tur tur tur write another show turn it around get
01:28:04another tour on sale every year every year every year yeah i want to try and do like no stand up in
01:28:082027. what are you going to do instead just like write scripts maybe write a book like just
01:28:14live you know you've got the podcast that keeps the lights on build that a bit more but like
01:28:20it'd be cool to do a year of like not doing it and then really want to go back to it yeah well also
01:28:26in order for art to imitate life you have to live a life yeah and see comedians where all their stuff's
01:28:31about like airplanes and dinners yeah and backstages or green rooms yeah it's like gotta get out in the
01:28:37world a little bit a little bit where did the name yourself at the 9 11 memorial that's true that was
01:28:42part of tour that's great uh the name guy to parenting yes people think it was like a jab but like
01:28:48parenting podcasts it truly wasn't it was mike and i had done like a couple of trial versions of the
01:28:53podcast where we were like okay we're idiots like we are just talking absolute shite the whole time and it's all
01:28:59silly and i was like right so we could call it mike and vittorio's very stupid podcast and that would
01:29:07be like an accurate description but surely the naming protocols should also match the vibe of the
01:29:13podcast where we just name it the stupidest thing that we can think of and we landed on mike and vittorio's
01:29:20guide to parenting do you think many people listen hoping to find some parenting advice we get a few
01:29:26messages i've put it in the children and family section of spotify
01:29:36it's like in people's recommended pods if they like are new parents they like they get recommended
01:29:43us on spotify i started i started listening to the manosphere version thinking that it would educate me
01:29:48about what to worry about for my eight-year-old son yeah and i was horrified at what i heard
01:29:57yeah so we just thought it was the stupidest name
01:30:00ever and the joke answer is we're trying to attract an audience of young moms
01:30:09what trouble have you guys gotten into has there been anything coming out of that
01:30:13of like the naming thing no no no of the show generally the podcast yeah no i think like look
01:30:19every so often we get a little message where someone goes oh i didn't like that bit i didn't like this
01:30:23bit and we have like i think we have all sorts of people listening to the podcast and i think a lot
01:30:28of people think it's like guys listen to the podcast but it's like girls with fringes i think there's
01:30:34something about like guys talking in like a playful silly fun way is a way where i think women generally
01:30:44like socially are like very good communicators and talk about their feelings there's that like kind
01:30:48of like hack stand up bit of you know i went for a beer with my friend we spent three hours together
01:30:56i come back home and my partner goes how's his mom how's his work going is he seeing anyone and you're
01:31:02like why would i know any of that stuff and she's like you spent three hours together how did you not
01:31:09talk about that stuff and they can connect emotionally and really like learn about each
01:31:12other and sort of love each other in that way but i think men while we're at that first
01:31:17one and i'm trying to get better at it we're good at just abstract around chat
01:31:23and like silly fun chat and i think like for some men listening to our podcast would be like
01:31:30well i can kind of just like chat to my friends and around with them and that's what this is and
01:31:34that's nice when you're maybe like in a new city and you like don't have that set up yet but i think
01:31:40a lot of the women that listen to the podcast are like they don't get those conversations from like
01:31:46their group of girl mates and some this is all generalizations and all that stuff you know there's
01:31:49some women that are like have those conversations and have those chats or whatever but i think like
01:31:53we're providing a service that like isn't as readily available to women in a way which is quite it's like i
01:31:58i wasn't expecting it we weren't targeting a demographic at all but it was like exciting do
01:32:01you know the basement yard you familiar i do yeah they're so funny so joe santagato was there in the
01:32:07last week or something and uh they did madison square garden sold that out 90 women unbelievable
01:32:15isn't it i think it's probably a similar thing it's the exact same thing it's the exact same thing and
01:32:21the sound when they walked out on stage the screams were so loud that everyone's apple watches went off
01:32:26warning people that they were in an unsafe noise environment like some harry styles concert yeah
01:32:31unbelievable that is and i think like that's probably a shame like like why women feel like
01:32:38they can't be stupid or silly or fun in that way you know they're supposed like i guess they've been
01:32:43told they're supposed to be buttoned up and like responsible maybe and men have more freedom to
01:32:47i think i definitely think when it comes to comedy podcasts it's hard
01:32:53most of them are guy-centric about guy stuff and then begin to push into an amount of edginess that
01:33:00deselects for a lot of that female audience right um especially one of the more
01:33:08linear paths to pod success or online content creator success is to start to ski right if you're going to
01:33:15do that sort of stuff i think which again deselects for a lot of the women and um it's always going
01:33:20to get into some kind of you you orbit manosphere manosphere adjacency stuff which i'm aware that you
01:33:28brought it up earlier on i do need to clear my name you're not in the manosphere i'm not even
01:33:32fucking they hate me they hate me yeah but i don't know you're closer than i am that's not hard
01:33:40that's not hard i'm a little with your female autism i'm a low t female sort of with a little
01:33:48earring yeah i get called gay on the internet every day of my whole life like i don't know it's funny
01:33:54like it's funny like you maybe you sit in a very interesting place i think like you're not in the
01:34:00manosphere but i think to some people they would say you're like the now and i don't think you're
01:34:05guilty of any of that either like the really problematic stuff but for some reason like
01:34:13maybe because you're like jacked like is it just that you're like in really good shape
01:34:17and maybe talk about it or like because there's a venn diagram of like talking about health and fitness
01:34:22and mindset and like those things which does exist in a more problematic male media landscape
01:34:30but i think you managed to sort of i don't know an unkind views you're like the narrowest end of the
01:34:36wedge correct with the the uh accusation i got after uh me and bartlett went viral at the start of the
01:34:44year was that i'm the gateway drug to the manosphere that i'm the little pebble at the top of the avalanche
01:34:50well yeah you start off listening to chris williamson but before you know it you've pipelined your way
01:34:53into nick fuentes and andrew tate yeah uh despite the fact that the day after the louis theroux
01:34:59documentary came out i managed to unite feminists and the manosphere in agreement that the worst part
01:35:05of the louis theroux documentary was him coming on my podcast that was what they were tweeting about
01:35:10the next day it wasn't about the documentary it was about me it was like a full half ai
01:35:15louis coming on yeah louis coming on my podcast got me every single most of the people who were
01:35:22in the documentary weren't tweeting about the documentary they were tweeting about me platforming
01:35:26louis theroux wow that that was that was unacceptable but only a couple of months before
01:35:32when i've been on bartlett massage i got called the lux max it which i actually think is kind of a
01:35:36compliment uh all of the newspaper articles about that were right wing manosphere misogynist but then
01:35:41when i went and did tucker carlson's podcast only a couple of months before that i was accused of being
01:35:46riddled with blue-pilled thinking and infected with feminist lies there's a quote yesterday literally
01:35:50yesterday on twitter the big reply that happened to like something i put up that was like some cs lewis
01:35:56quote that i thought was really like cool and cute and it like talks it's both sides of the fence about
01:36:00uh the homemaker is the ultimate career and all other careers are just built to support that one i was
01:36:05like oh wow this is really interesting because it's like both it's supportive it's progressive it's
01:36:09really great old school whatever the and uh someone was like more feminist bullshit in fact i answered
01:36:13that question yesterday like um when are you going to admit that all that you do is spew the exact
01:36:19feminist lies that you that are creating the problems in the world i'm like i'm getting ideologically
01:36:25spit roasted because it's a difficult thing because we i've had like tv producers come to mine and mike's
01:36:32stand up shows and be like do you ever worry that your audience are the type of audience that might
01:36:38be in the manosphere or might like have some of those incel tendencies or might drift towards
01:36:42that andrew tate type of thing and i'm like that's really the opposite of a worry for me
01:36:48because if i because if me and mike can get a hold of them before tate does then they're not going to
01:36:54become these sort of fucked up like misogynist violent like abusive partners these women because
01:37:02we make fun of those guys and we're softer and we're more open and like i think a nice thing that
01:37:08i try to emulate on our podcast again not super actively but like is you know mortimer and white
01:37:13house gone fishing yes and how like lovely they are to each other as like older men and they like
01:37:19say each other i love the way they say each other's names like how you going how you doing bob she's
01:37:23lovely like there's some intimacy yeah male intimacy with like in a in a friendship that i think is
01:37:30represented on that and these like tv people were like oh we're just not you know that's that's a bit
01:37:35of a worry for us and i'm like but someone has to talk to these people someone has to talk to young
01:37:41men or else you're abandoning that to all of the influences that you have the biggest concerns about
01:37:49and it's hard to talk about like like young men feeling abandoned or without feeling like you're
01:37:56heading towards that manosphere thing but like i think that's why i found that benefit from the
01:38:00jordan peters and stuff it was someone talking to me in a way that i could understand and how i can
01:38:05take up a positive space in the world it wasn't patronizing it wasn't pushing you to in a direction
01:38:13that you felt was unethical and it wasn't telling me i was like a piece of shit for being like a man
01:38:19yeah you know yeah i look i uh you're right i think it is it is definitely an interesting whatever
01:38:25middle of the venn diagram of talking about personal development health and fitness and and you know
01:38:31sex differences and challenges between the sexes and birth rates and stuff like that because i think
01:38:35they're important issues but it's the internet's really quick to pattern match and especially if
01:38:40you present yeah maybe you could like hell like you know someone could look a little bit fruity and
01:38:45you're like might be maybe he might he might swing both ways and then this is well he might be you
01:38:50know he could be manosphere but then also again insufficiently masculine for the manosphere because
01:38:54the gay accusations come thick and fast um but like them coming thick and fast sorry
01:39:01uh one of the things there's this great great article that i saw the other day about grindslop
01:39:10so this is and i think this is something that i've been feeling for a while that
01:39:181000 you'll be episode 1110 or something like a lot right uh and much of that is me as a young man
01:39:25going i don't know what to do i don't know how to how to operate in the world i'm confused about
01:39:33emotions and i sometimes i sometimes have self-doubt and i i just sleep i think i should sleep i should
01:39:38probably sleep more and i should probably work out what i need to eat and i'm gonna find whoever i can
01:39:42get a hold of to to understand that and understand myself and understand the world around me especially
01:39:47as the whatever late adolescent onset like whatever the opposite of precocious development is i'm like
01:39:54in my 20s starting to understand me and uh but there is a there is a degree at least when i have the
01:40:02conversations where i'm like a lot of the 80 20 of the development side of stuff like how to sleep well
01:40:09what a productivity strategy looks like this is how you should eat this is how you should train these are
01:40:14how you need friends in your life and all of these things like i think a lot of that has already been
01:40:19covered if not by me than by other people so i'm one of the reasons that i've got this studio and we've
01:40:24got this big table and there's we're doing these episodes with lots of people is i get the sense in
01:40:29the age of ai that just raw information dumping is probably not more of what people need it's probably
01:40:36not more of what i need i certainly want to learn about things and there'll be progress to make but
01:40:40given that lots of that territory is already being covered by me and by other people and i think
01:40:47people are feeling more alone and i know that i even i as somebody that's constantly around people
01:40:52have that sense too i'm like i i want to listen i just want to listen to matt and shane i just want
01:40:55to like have a hang and like all right tuning to you guys are tuning to like uh jacob and jake and
01:40:59just listen to them talk bullshit i just want to listen to them talk bullshit and um that's something
01:41:04that i'm actively sort of nudging the show in that direction and i'm gonna lose a big chunk of the
01:41:12audience from doing that to because once a week or once every couple of weeks it's me and my friends
01:41:18sat around talking about whatever the fuck has happened yeah and having that degree of male intimacy
01:41:22and just having a hang and not like it doesn't feel like homework and when you've left you go to learn
01:41:28anything i had a nice time yeah i had a nice time yeah and uh that's it's just like an interesting
01:41:34pivot and that's kind of where i'm feeling at the moment that the grind slop like work until your eyes
01:41:38bleed thing i don't definitely been through that era but i don't think that more of that is necessarily
01:41:44needed so anyway that i don't even know what i'm saying there's a lot of funny parodies of the sort of
01:41:48grind slop thing is it was named doug baldwin with the tiny little sunglasses he was sat in that seat
01:41:56yesterday yo get pissed call the police that's me on the floor he's so funny some of the bits that we
01:42:07did yesterday are unbelievable he is so funny you know him and timmy no breaks are the partners in
01:42:12a lot of things oh great okay cool yeah yeah i think he's the funniest guy they make me he was here
01:42:18yesterday that's so funny yeah it was great so uh but yeah exactly exactly that and um i have a little
01:42:25hope for ai okay that it really like that it'll put a premium on like live experiences and music gigs
01:42:36people will buy tickets for them and stand-up gigs people buy tickets for them because you can't trust
01:42:40anything that's on your phone anymore yeah because it's like why like even watching the winter olympics
01:42:45i was like is this i don't think i don't think trump competed like you know yeah like there's just
01:42:52something about it where you go like uh it makes me the phone is slightly giving me the ick at the
01:42:57minute because it's like i can't quite trust it and i just go it already was no one was already that
01:43:03much of a fan of it and now but it's just like even the silly fun videos aren't like you know
01:43:10like this propaganda cat videos but like cat videos were like what the internet was sort of built
01:43:15on and now you can't you don't know if it's a cat or if it's just some ai thing so it's i think being
01:43:22in the real world might become back in fashion i think so too i mean nightclubs aren't nightclubs
01:43:27are dying a death right which was my old industry for a long time i think it's an one one nightclub a
01:43:34week is closing down in the uk at the moment there's not that many to be able to go through
01:43:38i'm aware in the us it'd be like rounding error on the number of nightclubs you can't get away with
01:43:43that many and most of them were already a bit like you know when it is it's when flares closes down
01:43:49that's when you know that there's a real issue okay that's their patient zero for like they're
01:43:54they're the overton window for nightlife they've weathered a lot of storms they do they have
01:43:57indeed yeah with the light up dance floor uh speaking of that what's the most belfast way
01:44:03that anyone's ever threatened you threatened me i mean there's like fun like there's a thing that's
01:44:08happened twice now on the tour and this doesn't feel like a threat but it does a little bit there's a
01:44:14bit in the show where i ask if anyone's from where i'm from and i talk about and the joke is about the
01:44:21naming conventions of like some people don't say northern ireland because they don't agree with the
01:44:25fact that it exists some people say the north of ireland because they think ireland should be one
01:44:29whole big thing and that's like a big divide where catholics would call it the north of ireland
01:44:34protestants would call it northern ireland that's like a thing so i have jokes about that and in those
01:44:39jokes i go obviously notice i haven't named where i'm from because in the first chunk of the show i
01:44:42don't name where i'm from i say belfast but i don't name northern ireland as a place and i say um
01:44:48oh have you noticed that i haven't named it and it happened in newcastle upon town and it happened in
01:44:53philadelphia and no it was last night in nashville happened in nashville in newcastle
01:44:59where somebody shouted out the word trench which is the street my dad grew up on
01:45:07in west belfast which doesn't on the face of it scream threat but it's a bit like oh
01:45:15that's intense how did they know that like their family knows my family
01:45:22and in a show that's maybe a little bit contentious about northern ireland stuff
01:45:26it's just a bit like okay noted noted was the threat scarier in newcastle or nashville
01:45:34i would say newcastle that felt a bit more connected to the whole thing
01:45:37um but it feels like i was reading a london falling patrick rand keith's new book
01:45:42and you know patrick rand keith he wrote say nothing
01:45:45um you should read say nothing i think you'd really like it is a hint um no shut the up um
01:45:57um and in it he was talking about when he was like interviewing gangsters who were like around this
01:46:03murder that the book's about um and they would always mention like his kids names and his like dog's name
01:46:10it's just a little flex we know where you're from we know who you are i know exactly where you're from
01:46:15and who you are french hmm hell that i was i was thinking it was going to be some fun jovial little
01:46:22like strange and in fact it's actually a private investigator guy who knows something deep and dark
01:46:28about but west belfast so small like i'm not from west belfast but my dad is right but like
01:46:33it's a small little world paddy galloway good friend of mine he there's something about the
01:46:40entirety of ireland that seems diplomatic enough to say the entirety of the island of ireland
01:46:46the island of ireland diplomatically okay also people are trying to spitball new names for the
01:46:52concept of the british isles because that claims overship of over ireland by britain okay so you can't
01:46:57call them the british islands i think somebody said uh what if we called it the east caribbean
01:47:10uh so paddy paddy was every single person i know that's from the island of ireland
01:47:17has a story where there's some sort of family drama feud thing that goes all the way back despite the
01:47:24fact that england is just as old and and scotland is just as old and i don't hear i don't know anyone
01:47:32that's in the in england that's got that same kind of heritage my family and their family and
01:47:39this thing in the farm next door it just i don't know there seems to be way more like ossification
01:47:45do you think it's just reality maybe of like like agricultural communities probably do like they're
01:47:52more embedded in their communities and they rely on each other in the community if you're less
01:47:55cosmopolitan you're moving and grooving around yeah and that's like a sad thing about living in a
01:48:00city but i try to like be connected in a city it's like a nice thing to try and build a community
01:48:04living in north london like what's the community of north london like jewish uh the uh
01:48:13the uh there's a lady who lives in my block of flats um who's this old italian lady and she feeds the
01:48:19foxes so you'll just see her in the bushes every day like throwing chicken to foxes um and if she
01:48:27sees one of the foxes has like mange uh she'll phone a fox charity get madison delivered put it in
01:48:34the chicken she's a fox lady give it to the fox she looks after the foxes and it means there's a real
01:48:37fox problem which is increasing our block of flats because they're very well looked after by this
01:48:43little italian lady and uh and uh but every so often she needs help sending a whatsapp so she comes
01:48:51up and knocks on the door you're fully integrated so it's like no i try to build that stuff and like
01:48:58i think it's really important and like i'm not even doing nearly enough of it as i should but like
01:49:03i think it's a really important part of life that's like like not easily fixable because it's really
01:49:08scary to just like say hello to somebody like on the street or your neighbor or whatever but like it is
01:49:14it's doable it's nice to be needed it's nice that that person's got something that they need you for
01:49:19yeah because the the worst thing would be everybody else is a solopreneur digital nomad degen just
01:49:26whatsapp in their way through their day and you go none of us need any of us yeah at all yeah yeah
01:49:32that's not fun what uh what do you think is something that italian families do that british
01:49:37people would i don't know consider psychological warfare psychological warfare i mean it's maybe
01:49:45so have you heard like so santa has become global but it wasn't always global like santa claus okay
01:49:51um like you know there was like a weird german one called like the is it the krampus or something
01:49:56who like eats kids um if they're naughty like that's instead of like a lump of coal like you just get
01:50:01eaten by a sort of weird goblin reverse santa claus yeah yeah but i think you do get nice stuff if
01:50:06you're good or maybe you just avoid being eaten but our version is i think a lab ifana and i think i
01:50:11fucked this up but this is what i was told um where when the wise men were looking to find jesus they
01:50:16were knocking on all the doors in bethlehem because like they look for under a star but like that's not
01:50:22a good it's hardly google maps you know what i mean so they had the vague area that they were supposed
01:50:26to be in but couldn't find him so they were knocking on doors going oh we're looking for the son of god
01:50:30who's to be born or like who's just been born and uh we're trying to find him and basically this old
01:50:37lady who's like sort of an old witch type character just tells them to off but then
01:50:42when they leave she feels bad and she's like god if that is like if that is the son of god
01:50:46like that's a pretty terrible thing that i've done not to help these guys sort of bestow gifts
01:50:49upon him so what she does to cover her bases she was like i need to give a gift to the newly born
01:50:55son of god but she obviously didn't know where he was so she gave gifts to all the children
01:51:00in the whole area in the hope that one of those would be the newly born son of god so in balfast
01:51:08growing up we would go to like a community hall with a bouncy castle and sandwiches and all this stuff
01:51:12and like have a fun day and then we would all sit down and a late an old lady dressed as a witch
01:51:17would come in and give us all presents
01:51:24isn't that mad is that was that traumatic as a nervous slightly panicky child no i think i i
01:51:32was scared by weird things la bifana the witch was absolutely fine um it's the uh what's his um
01:51:40i remember i went to disney world when i was a child terrified of the little mermaid burst into tears
01:51:46of the mermaid herself like no the mermaid herself like the lady like the actress or whatever
01:51:51the struggling actress who's playing the little mermaid at disney world eight hours a day yeah
01:51:55sweating and like a wig and i think i was just like really freaked out that she didn't have legs
01:52:05you're overwhelmed by the fish lady yeah it was just a little bit much for me yeah i remember i went i
01:52:11went there as well and uh what was that what was the elevator you're going to do the same thing i'm
01:52:17terrified of saying the sentence with the name of the thing in it the elevator that went up and down and
01:52:23that was the ride do you remember this tower of terror i'm glad that it wasn't the tower that was
01:52:29terrifying you were fine uh i remember i went on that and someone's thing came loose as they fell
01:52:37and uh there was all of this hubbub there was a big i mean that's you know you said if you die
01:52:42on a plane there's going to be paperwork i think there was a lot of paperwork well i haven't really
01:52:46done roller coasters since was it alton towers where somebody lost their leg on nemesis didn't
01:52:51that happen twice can you chat gpt how many people got injured on nemesis at alton towers the smiler
01:53:01yes 16 people the smiler that seems tough name that seems ironic tough name i crashed the injured 16
01:53:10five what was just say what was the one where someone lost their leg like i think it was alton
01:53:15towers but i truly haven't been on a roller coaster since and i don't know it's just like i obviously
01:53:21you know that's a possibility but you sort of think i'll be all right let's check all the safety on
01:53:26those things it's a great name bargazzi joke about like he's thinking the smiler a traveling funfair
01:53:31yeah me leg amputations two people they must have got crazy money five million it doesn't really
01:53:40matter you've lost a leg how much for a leg my leg yeah
01:53:45it's a tough conundrum isn't it i really like my leg i like both of them equally if you had to lose
01:53:55one which one would you lose that's oh that's weird because you know the way you like you have your
01:54:01kicking foot but then you like you jump off the other one oh no which do i prefer kicking or jumping
01:54:09i don't think i would be doing much jumping as like a one-legged guy so how much kicking would
01:54:14you be doing loads i think you're mostly kicking crotch bang i think yeah i think i would keep my
01:54:21right leg and train for the paralympics as a one-legged football guy i think i'd keep my right
01:54:25leg as well i think that's the important one i don't know i've been thinking about are you left-handed
01:54:30by any chance no because that sometimes happens right with uh i think autistic people have got
01:54:35oh really we've swapped the as in you're right-footed and left-handed no that uh there's a disproportionate
01:54:40number of people who are autistic that are also left-handed wow i think let's google this one i'm
01:54:46worried about the whatever the whatever it is water usage or whatever it is that you're concerned about
01:54:50um uh my left hand is essentially for show it doesn't do anything well i had a lot because
01:54:57when i was a percussionist right a lot of the focus of that sort of training just bringing the
01:55:03other hand up to the quality of the get this to stop being so useless and do nearly what you can do
01:55:10is like basically the whole thing uh dude double wow what's what the is that word echo echo echolash
01:55:24echolalia echolalia that's when uh uh you sort of repeat words it's sort of like audiological stems
01:55:32or repeat words or noises so someone will repeat words or noises yeah and uh yeah yeah and they just
01:55:38sort of like get stuck in a loop i get that sometimes my girlfriend has to go hey stop what was the last
01:55:45time that that happened i just got like if i if i like the way a word sounds either that i've said or
01:55:50somebody else has said or like in a song i'll just be like indigo indigo indigo indigo indigo indigo
01:55:58and she goes
01:56:04fuck vittorio angeloni ladies and gentlemen thank you so much for having me this is this is
01:56:09this was really good for you were about to say actually no yes you were no yes i was gonna say
01:56:13this was actively in uh where should people go to check out everything you do vittorio angeloni on
01:56:21instagram uh i'm a i'm touring stand-up comedy i don't know when this comes out but i've got two
01:56:25specials on youtube and that's probably the best place i always think like it's crazy after a podcast to
01:56:30be like buy a ticket to see me watch my shows on youtube see if you like that and then buy a ticket
01:56:36if you fancy it i can appreciate you man all right until next time everyone lovely dude
01:56:41wasn't that fun super fun thank you very much for tuning in if you enjoyed that episode youtube knows
01:56:48who you are deeply it thinks you're gonna like this one even more go on press it

Key Takeaway

Embracing an 'autism level 1' diagnosis at 29 reframed a lifetime of social misunderstandings, allowing for a more deliberate approach to professional success and interpersonal interactions.

Highlights

  • A 29-year-old autism diagnosis explained a lifelong pattern of unintentional social friction and internal anxiety.

  • The 'meal deal' institution in the UK provides a main, side, and drink for 3.50 pounds, a cultural staple absent in the US.

  • Cutting a sandwich diagonally results in an estimated 15% improvement in perceived taste, acting as an act of service.

  • Public autism assessment wait times in the UK can reach four years, forcing many to seek private, often expensive, routes.

  • After suffering persistent vomiting in Nashville, a $200 anti-vomiting injection at an urgent care facility allowed for travel to the next tour stop.

  • A 10-pin bowling clip of Pete Weber shouting 'Who do you think you are? I am!' serves as a thematic framework for navigating identity and perceived arrogance.

Timeline

Medical Crisis and Healthcare Encounters

  • A suspected drink spiking in Nashville caused severe, persistent vomiting.
  • The experience necessitated an $200 anti-vomiting injection at a US urgent care clinic.
  • Airport accessibility assistance was utilized to navigate terminals while incapacitated.

After an evening playing pool in Nashville, extreme vomiting episodes persisted for over 24 hours. The American healthcare system, experienced via an urgent care clinic beside a burger restaurant, differed significantly from expectations. To ensure travel success, the use of airport assistance was framed as an 'ankle injury' to avoid flight denial.

Autism Diagnosis and Social Dynamics

  • Adult autism diagnosis occurred at age 29 after years of social confusion.
  • High proficiency in 'masking' often obscures autistic traits in standard diagnostic tests.
  • The diagnosis helps clarify why social interactions often resulted in unintended conflict.

The transition to a formal autism diagnosis at 29 provided clarity for lifelong social confusion and anxiety. Unlike the misconception of 'blissful ignorance,' autism involves intense fear of having caused social harm without the ability to detect it. Professional life as a stand-up comedian mirrors the necessity of 'masking,' where learned scripts are substituted for intuitive social navigation.

Cultural Observations and Comedy Philosophy

  • UK 'meal deals' offer a main, side, and drink for 3.50 pounds.
  • Diagonally cut sandwiches provide a 15% increase in perceived tastiness.
  • Ireland's chicken fillet roll represents the pinnacle of deli-counter sandwich technology.

Cultural differences regarding food institutions like the UK 'meal deal' and Irish deli culture highlight specific regional variations. Small details, such as the attention to detail in cutting a sandwich diagonally, are interpreted as distinct acts of service that elevate the experience beyond mere sustenance.

Identity, Ambition, and Professional Growth

  • A viral bowling clip by Pete Weber serves as the core metaphor for identity in touring shows.
  • Self-promotion and ambition are necessary tools for success in stand-up comedy.
  • Conscious efforts were made to reclaim a sense of professional swagger after negative feedback.

The show 'Who Do You Think You Are? I Am' utilizes a professional bowling clip to explore the tension between ambition and perceived arrogance. Recognizing that downplaying success is often a performative attempt to avoid judgment, the focus shifted toward embracing professional goals openly.

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